• Gladys Olivia Murray

Spiritual Esteem: Personal Problems


When you are not secure, you're not sure of who you are. When you are sure of who you are and what you have to offer, the feedback doesn't matter. People can agree or disagree and you will not be moved.

Insecurity is a very lonely place; lonely because you feel like you're the only one. The only one who's left out, the only one who's overlooked, and the only one who can't sit with all of the elite, chosen people. But it's also lonely because as insecure as you are, you aren't comfortable being vocal about it. And at the end of the day--it's just you, God, and your emotions. And although God is all you need to work through them, you're still waiting on praises from people, motivation from man, and confirmation from confidants before you will identify with the greatness that's already in you. And you won't receive what God has already said about you, unless He uses a human to say it.

I hear the Lord saying, "Stop relying on pats on the back to sustain your confidence in who I've called you to be."

If no one else tells you you're great

If no one else tells you you're gifted

If no one else tells you you're anointed

If no one else tells you you're called

If no one else tells you, "you're up"

If no one else picks you

If no one else chooses you

If no one else promotes you...

Will you still be confident of this very thing, that He who hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ?

Stop allowing people to validate your worth. If God said it, that settles it. And if you can't hear what He's saying about you, it's probably because you're too busy listening to what He's saying to everyone else. I was so consumed with everyone else's prophecy and what everyone else was hearing from God. As a matter of fact, when people would say, "God told me..." I would be like, Oh my God, God TALKS to you???" LOL I really felt like I was the ONLY one who wasn't granted access to these experiences, when in fact, all of the access I needed was in merely opening the Bible. And I couldn't help but wonder what it was I didn't have that hindered my clearance to be a part of them.

Comparison is truly the thief of joy. If you would stop listening to what everyone around you is saying, you just might hear the voice of God. There was so much noise in my life that when God was speaking, I couldn't hear Him. I had resolved that I was not as special as everyone else, that God didn't talk to me, and that that was just something I'd have to learn to live with. So I sought validation in all of the wrong places and I needed approval in order to feel secure.

The truth is, we give people too much power. I needed people to tell me I was talented, to tell me I was anointed, and to tell me that I, too, was called, before I would believe that about myself. I had a Bible full of all of the affirmation I desired, but it wasn't enough for me. And I had a savior who died so I could have direct access to God, but I still needed a human to be the messenger.

Continue to Part IV, Perspective Problems https://www.getlivted.com/single-post/2017/11/14/Spiritual-Esteem-Perspective-Problems


 GLADYSOLIVIA