Are You Truly Faithful?
Have you ever been flabbergasted by the reality of something you prayed for, fasted for, and wholeheartedly believed God for, NOT happening?
I mean you were really speaking that thing into existence, or so you thought. Skipping meals, loving your enemies, paying tithes AND offering, and abstaining from anything you thought might hinder your request from being granted. You were preparing yourself. Consecrating yourself. Really seeking God. But Lo and behold, you arrived at the ninth hour expecting your miracle, only to find your circumstance unchanged as God seemingly sat back, watched, and did nothing.
You were shocked; I mean, in utter disbelief that after all of that work, all of that prayer, and all of that faith...you were slapped in the face like that. And as you tried to gather your feelings of confusion, anger and hurt--an age-old question crept up in your mind as soon as there was a break in your thoughts: what is the point of me telling God what I want, if He's just going to do what He wants??
I had a season like this y'all (the one I discussed in Floating on Grace). And for an extended period in time, I couldn't help but think that "it was all a lie." All of the scriptures about how we have not because we ask not (James 4:2), how if we seek something we'll find it (Matthew 7:7), how if we knock the door will be opened for us (Matthew 7:8), and how if we delight ourselves in the Lord He will give us the desires of our heart (Psalm 37:4). How could any of this be true, if the exact opposite had happened for me?
Scriptures always tend to raise these thought-provoking questions.
"If by His stripes we are healed why did--" your mother die from cancer.
"He said to fear not because He is with us, but where was He when--" your cousin was shot to death.
"If no weapon formed against us shall prosper, how come--" taking the high road was a dead end of defeat and disappointment.
"I thought that if God is for us, no one can be against us, so why was--" the verdict "guilty".
Is it all a lie? Did Paul & John & everybody else write it down because it sounded good?? Are there stipulations in the fine print? God how could you do this to me? Your good and faithful servant?
Well...are you truly faithful?
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To be continued.